And the cycle starts again. How depressing. Damn that faint line, I would have just kept my big mouth shut if not for that.
I'm having such a miserable day. Aside from the fun of writing the opinion post I've been in a pretty bad funk. I went to my therapy appointment after work. Rushing around like crazy to get there on time. I let it all pour out, all the things in my life going on right now that have been making me bawl my eyes out until they're red and sore and puffy. I feel like I could somehow deal with any one of them if they happened separately, but they're not. They're all at once. I keep getting knocked down and I can't get up anymore. It's no wonder I'm not pregnant, I'm so stressed out. I wish I could be someone else, live somewhere else, or just not be at all. I wish I could be picked up by the wind and blown away over the trees, or melted by the rain and pour into the river and be washed out to sea.
Just when I think things can't get any worse, they do.
Just when I start to have a little bit of hope, it's destroyed.
I wish I had a different life.
I wish.
6 years ago
2 comments:
I know. I'm so sorry you're going through a rough time. I'm with you, I wish I had a different life much of the time too.
I hope you find your therapist is helping. We see a psychologist every couple of weeks and I find it great. So nice to have someone to listen, who really wants to listen.
Hang in there.
I think it is wonderful you've chosen therapy - letting it all pour out has to be helpful.
Wishes are good too, i wish for you as well.
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