I've been feeling pretty miserable these past few days. I can't get to sleep at night. I start to cry with little to no warning.
All the memories, all the sadness is swirling around me. I feel crippled by it.
Has it really been almost three years since my life was shattered? Since everything I thought I understood in this world became a mockery?
I've given up asking why.
This is just my lot in life. I am made to suffer.
6 years ago
2 comments:
I'm so sorry Shannon...there simply has to be an answer out there, something the doctors have neglected to check you for. Take all of your tests up to see the new man, all of them. Hopefully he'll see something that's been overlooked or looks concerning. You were NOT meant to suffer, although you have had a great deal more of it than you should have. That only makes me believe that in the balance of life, you have great amounts of joy on the way. Keep faith my friend. Sending you love and hugs...
I feel that way too, often. We were watching The Biggest Loser last night and the contestant who got voted out was talking about how happy he is now - really, truly, deeply happy. And of course, I cried because I wonder if I'll ever know what that is like.
((hugs))
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