Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Here to Wonder

I have half a ream of paper. My medical records. I sorted through it today and put it in cronological order.

Another miserable day. Lots of crying. Feeling overwhelmed.

Sad.

I wish this week was over.

I wish Mother's Day would never come.

3 years ago my whole life changed.

I died that day.

I don't know who it is who occupies my body now.

I wish I wasn't here to wonder.

3 comments:

Joanne said...

I just wanted to say I am thinking of you.. I read your post and cried. I am so sorry. It is my angels 6 month anniversary tomorrow and everything seems alot more difficult today and your words just summed up exactly how I felt.

Kelly said...

I wish I couldn't relate to how you're feeling and I wish that there weren't another person who was feeling so much pain.

(((HUGS)))

margaret said...

I'm so sorry Shannon...sending you hugs and wishes for better days.