Box

So I've finally done it. I put all my memories in a box. I wanted to get a nice wooden one, maybe have Isabella and Sean's names carved on it, but since it's already taken me over a year since Isabella died to do it, this plastic box will have to do. One good thing about the plastic is that I can see inside it.

Inside you can see the bibs I bought for each of them and the big teddy bear is from a hotel that my husband and I stayed at in Arizona last year when I was still pregnant with Isabella. I have all my medical records, cards congratulating me for being pregnant last year and then the condolence cards. I have Share Newsletters, my folder of information my OBGYN hands out, U/S pictures, note cards that I wrote my questions for my OBGYN on, and other odds and ends that remind me of Isabella and Sean.

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It's been a while since I've last posted. I've been mostly just coasting along. I still haven't been working. I don't really want to go back to my old job. I don't want to start a new job. I've been enjoying this time to myself, to rest if I feel like it, and do small projects around the house. I feel like I'm done with the working and being an engineer phase of my life and that I should be moving on to the next phase. I should be a mom now. I've been waiting 2 years to have that job, I hope I don't have to wait much longer.